The Unanswered Whys

My Naked Self

Here I am naked in front of you

I've told you who I am, where I come from

and what I'm looking for

I've revealed everything about myself

I've told you about my fears

I admitted my darkness

I've entrusted you with my precious stone

I've given you my all

I've let go of my insecurities

Here I was learning to love again.

What do you do when history revisits

Conversation with a friend

History has a funny way of repeating itself, these words escaped my mouth in February.

Friend: History you say,

Me: Yeah history friend. You know that thing that happened in the past and you prayed to God that it should never happen again. Well history just love being present.

Ignite the fire

The journey

A year ago when I wrote a certain article I wasn't aware that a number of people would relate to it. That the article would speak to them, to a point where some were comfortable to share their experiences. Some articles are taken from real life experiences or what is common amongst us in society.

To the greatest woman

Happy Mother's Day

To my mother

You loved me before you saw me. The first time you held me you knew I was destined for greatness for God lives in you. You were there when I took my first steps, when I stumbled you cheered me on to stand up and walk again. When I started school you were there, you chose the best education for me for you wanted greater things for me. You sacrificed you so that I can be the superstar that I am today.

You didn't give up on me when I did wrong, you're a mother who always reprimanded me with good principles. When I went astray you didn't call me negative names but said God this is my child I shall continue praying for.

You raised me with good principles and taught me to stay in Christ. You held my hand every Sunday as we walked into the house of the Lord.  Through your actions you instilled good principles in me. I learnt to love because of you. I learnt to be me because of you. I learnt to walk tall because of you. I am strong because of you.

You are my mother, my best friend.

Happy Mother's Day

By T Sibiya 

T-Angelz  Creations 

A Dark cloud

All shall pass

Life has always been good, everything went well. At school I wasn't the genius but I was doing okay.  Life after matric was so perfect,  everything fell into place. I went to one of the best universities in the country immediately after graduation I landed my first job. God was truly alive.

Let the beauty flourish

Let the beauty flow

I have always wondered how people get to write beautiful love poems, love stories. Where do they get their inspiration?  How do those words get to flow so easily on paper? How the keyboard listens to their fingers and letter falls into place, forming beautiful sentences, lovely paragraphs. Few years back I said; “the day I'll be inspired by love I'll tell the world of its beauty.” But such beauty don't seem to be written. I have experienced love (friendship, family, self, all love) but the beauty of these words do not want to escape my thoughts. My fingers do not cooperate with how I'm feeling. What goes on paper is not what I'm thinking.  

An Apology

The broken

I said I’m sorry but you still don’t believe me

I know I have hurt you

I know I have done you wrong

I know I have tormented your world

I know I have made you hate mankind

I know I lied to you, I told you not to worry.

I know you have asked me countless times who this person was

I lied and said he’s my cousin

I lied and said he’s my buddy, my closest male friend

I lied and said he’s a guy who offered me a lift non-else

Mischievous Talent

Kodwa mntanami unesiphiwo sok’ganga

It was a lovely summer evening when my dad came back from work. It was my turn to make him tea, as per normal I went to the kitchen turned on the kettle, and set out all the things i'd need for the tea. While I was waiting for the kettle to boil, I was humming some song and attempting to dance. A few minutes later the kettle hasn’t started boiling, I checked the switched, and examined the kettle and all seemed well. I waited for a few more minutes but there wasn’t any difference. Weird, it was working not so long ago, I wondered what happened. I told my dad that the kettle isn’t boiling. He came to the kitchen to check it, he flicked the switched on and off, checked if the kettle was sitting properly he even checked the cord and he found no fault. I was bit annoyed because now I had to boil the water in a pot on the stove and that takes forever and it cuts through my precious television time.

So I was the Makhwapheni

The moment I found out I was the Makhwapheni.

He came up to me, hit me with the best line, all smiles and knees weaken. I’m taken to another world that no man can explain. I’m flattered by this nice gentleman, his eyes, smile, teeth, those looks, he’s just unbelievable. He's a smooth talker; he wants nothing but simple friendship. Well; why not, I can be friends.

Three years later he confesses his love, I'm what he's been looking for all these years, he says. “You're the best friend a guy could ever have, how about we turn this relationship into a romantic one.” Without hesitation, we started dating. The guy was just too ‘perfect’, I’ve seen his flaws, knew his past and judging from our friendship I quite liked him. I fell for him so hard.

Dear Passion

Dear Passion

I don't know where I'd be if it wasn't for you. I don't think I'd be able to wake in the morning and genuinely look forward to my day. I don't know if I'd be able to breathe without you. Without you passion I'm incomplete. Over the past months, I must admit I did somehow let you go. My mind was clouded by the glamour of the end result. I had forgotten that the road ain't steady. I know; I saw what others were getting and wondered why am I left in a ditch where passion seems to be disappointing me.
I've followed you all these years but I've never seemed to be content. What is it really that you want from me? You have shown me glimpses of you, I have been to most of your spheres yet I was never in. Only once, one of your spheres looked all good and I was certain about it, you came back and said not this time.